Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Samuel Daniels
Samuel Daniels

Elena is an experienced journalist specializing in global affairs and digital media.